floating in the clouds

I wrote half of this post out months ago. It's a very hard one to write, and even harder to decide if it should be published. But I'm embarking on a new chapter in my life right now, and I kinda want to start afresh and I feel this post needs to go up so I can be completely transparent on here. I have mentioned in other posts that my mental health hasn't been on par this year but I really want to sit down and talk about it properly. It's going to be a long post, but it's something I feel is detrimental to my journey and moving onto to my next chapter. My mental health this year caused me to drop out of uni, it made me fall out of love with nursing and caring for people. After identifying myself as a "nurse" for so long and being a carer for four years which I absolutely adored, that suddenly turning into the biggest cause of my panic attacks and mood dips, has absolutely broken my heart. But people change, I'm only 21 and I have so much to learn and ...

So we knew, having a holiday in the UK, that the weather wouldn't be great the whole time. We had spoken generally about places we'd like to go on a rainy day in the days leading up to us going away. And the one place that was constantly brought up was the eden project. I'd never heard of the eden project before and was told it was a place with "big bubbles with different climates in" and when that rainy day came around, we decided on the eden project. I was mostly thinking it'll be a great place to take photos for my blog, and I mean it was, but I was shocked at the scale of the place, it's so huge and so visually stunning. It is essentially two dome like bubbles that have either a rainforest or Mediterranean climate, where you can walk around and experience new plant life, creatures and humidity. Wow the humidity. The place was built in an old quarry that had since fulfilled its purpose, the domes were built then pathways of flowers and wildlife were b...

I always love my holiday outfits, I don't know why it excites me so much packing all my favourite outfits for the week but I'm always itching to do an outfit post every time I'm on holiday, and my fashion taste has changed so much as of late, I'm wearing really odd things that I've just fallen head over heels for, my identity is headbands at the moment, I'm pairing one with every outfit currently. However on holiday I rarely wore one as my hair was in braids or had beach waves and a headband didn't suit my super curly hair. These outfit pictures are not up to a "blogger's standard". There just photos of me in a mirror, or out and about, using an iPhone. That's why I'm posting this on the same day as my holiday post, it's just  a little something to say "hey! Look what I wore!" And this is what I wore: I actually wore this outfit on the last day when the weather was rubbish and we spent the day in Barnstaple.  Je...

Oh my goodness. Hello. Again. I kinda vowed I'd blog again this year, and I had written out so many half posts that never got completed, and I took so many potential blog post photos that never became anything, but that is another post for another day. Today I want to post a bombshell of photos and talk about one of my absolute favourite weeks of my life. It's Monday today, on Saturday I came home from my holiday away to Devon with my partner and his family. I've never been down Devon/Cornwall way before, but I had heard lovely things about it. I wasn't expecting it to be quite so beautiful, it's all quirky village/surfer town style surrounded by the biggest hills and mountains and wooded areas. The beaches are stunning and the sea is actually blue -unlike the midlands favourite go-to beach, Skeggy (which is brown). My partner's sister brought her boyfriend along too and the group of us had such an amazing time. I learnt to bodyboard which is my biggest ...