floating in the clouds

At the end of January I did a post on how my resolutions were going and I said I was going to do this for all the months, just to ensure I had a positive, more successful year than previous years. This year feels like the most important one of my life to date. It's all about making sure I'm ready for the future. The days of being a kid are over and while I'm desperately trying grip on to every ounce of childhood left, I'm starting to come to terms with the fact that I need to think like an adult, because before I'll know it it'll be too late, I wouldn't have taken anything from college, therefore I won't have a career, I'll be down and out. And that's my biggest fear. So it's taken me five months to fully realise that maybe I need to grow up a little bit. I'm taking a big step today and I'm going to look for a job. This will be my biggest achievement this year. As well as sticking through college. There were times I'd wanted to d...

I've been a bit absent this week, it's been a tiring week at college. I wanted to get my 'currently listening to' post up but on Monday I was bombarded with responsibilities (probably not responsibilities to anyone else, I was very new to it. And I think I'm going to make it a follow up post to this one) So, my future is a very scary topic for me, I want to be someone extraordinary, I don't want a dead end job, I want people to know who I am, I want to have so much pride in what I do so that when future friends/boyfriends ask what I do they can think wow, she knows who she is and what she wants. Right now, that person definitely isn't me. If I'm completely honest, my life is a mess I have no control over anything in my life, I don't even have my own life. My life is my mum's life, I've never done anything without her (doctors, shops, leaving the house) it's not that she's overprotective it's that I'm physically unable to lea...

Yesterday I went to one of my favourite places with my family. Alton Towers is the best theme park in the UK (for anyone reading outside the UK) it has some of the scariest rides, and I'm an absolute adrenaline junkie when it comes to rollercoasters. I didn't get to go on many this time round as I was literally walking around alone, this was the first time I've been with no one my age that I can drag around to all the rides so it felt slightly awkward being the only person waiting in a queue with groups of girls in front of me and groups of guys behind... However it still easily became my favourite trip there, my body is aching! I've bruised my hip/back and my arm from trying to make a photo more interesting and slipping in the process.. (whey, story of my life) all my muscles are just... broken and even after a good night's rest I just want to go back to bed. Today is definitely going to be a chill, relaxed Sunday. I took a loooot of photos there, I've condens...

I don't know why I'm writing this, why I am writing a story that is available to be read to the world ?  Especially when I wanted to die of embarrassment with just the one person knowing ?  I guess embarrassing stories have a way of making themselves justifiable if you can tell them from your perspective and laugh at yourself -so in turn people will laugh with you not at you. I hope. Probably not... I had to visit the doctors today, I was having some tests which I was worried about, I hate having blood take from me and I hate needles. The other test is something I'd never heard about, but my heart had to be listened to... The tests alone made me worried, but my mum couldn't even be there because she had to be somewhere else. That made it worse... But I also had to find my own way to the doctors. On foot. In this heat. I didn't know what to wear, did I need to take my shirt off ?  What bra should I wear ?  Oh my God I don't have any pretty bras to wear. Shoul...

It's exam season, we've been doing all our exams in college this past few weeks, but most the theory we learn is pure common sense and I didn't need to study for them at all. I mean I've been getting 100% on some of them.. However we do have one subject which is pretty much a science exam and there's a lot of stuff we need to remember for it, so I've had to actually study for this one. I'm aiming for 100% again, I'm in deep competition with another girl in my class, no one ever expects me to be clever and she doesn't want to accept that I could be, so I'm enjoying proving her wrong -not in a really horrible way I promise! But I was sat revising and I was thinking of turning it into a post because I know when I was revising for my GCSEs I was all over the internet looking for the perfect exam tips. So I want to share what works for me. For starters, work area and self preparation I think it's important to be in a good environment to wo...

I said a few weeks ago now that I wanted to fully introduce Alfie onto my blog, he's been spoken about a little bit but it's time to make it official... His name, Alfie as I've said over and over before. He doesn't have a last name because I don't want him to have my last name as I don't like it. Just Alfie. For now. His breed, I don't actually know -he's a mixture of all sorts but he's definitely a rabbit! (I hope..) How long I've had him, I can't remember the exact day I got him but I know it was the summer of 2013, around the end of August. How old he is, he will be 2 years old on July 4th. Quirky things about his personality, he's generally a little poop, he has chewed multiple earphones and phone chargers (even when they were out of reach) and he's peed everywhere. But he is the biggest sweetheart, he doesn't like to admit it, but he loves me. He loves to sit on my back when I lie on the floor and blog and hi...