floating in the clouds

Prepare for verbal diarrhea. Honestly. I'm having one of those days where since the moment I woke up I was freaking out over 'my future' so I decided I'd have yet another day spent on google searching literally "what to do with my life." I have struggled with this for so long. I thought it would just come to me one day but it hasn't, and as every day goes by it's another day of my life being wasted away because I'm not doing anything productive. I'm not doing anything that is going to help me become my future. I just don't have the slightest clue on what I want with my life. I want a career. I want a job I love and a job that is me. I want something impressive, I don't want to be 'Bob who worked in a bank' I want be ' Shannon! Who works as a...' but my whole life has been spent trying to fill in that blank. My ultimate life goal is to walk to work/get the train, walk in with Starbucks in hand, professional smart clothe...

To put this bluntly, it's my time of the month. Well it should be, I seem to be having the cramps but nothing else. My body is so out of sync and everything is a mess, hormones are ridiculous, mood swings are out of control, and I'm sat in bed feeling sorry for myself because I was not blessed with opposite gentiles and an easier life. So I took to reading some blogs, and by chance I came across a women empowering post and I realised that actually, it's a lot cooler to be a girl than we once thought. Sure we go through some absolute SH*T in our lifetime, but being a woman I think we were actually given the better end of the stick. Here's why. source Let me start with the fact that in summer we can wear light flowy dresses allowing a soft breeze to reach us everywhere . Sure, you men can walk around shirtless, but nothing feels as satisfying as a flowy dress. And a bit of shirtless eye candy never hurt anyone. We will always be looked after and protected by...

I've been quite a bit absent this past week/getting on for two weeks, I didn't even realise as time seems to have escaped me. I was confused as to why we were doing our weekly shop yesterday as I thought it was Monday and had done our weekly shop just a few days ago. It's currently half term (a week off of college/school) which explains my lack of knowing the days of the week. But a whole week ?  How did I not notice a week passing ?  That's why I haven't posted... So as a bit of a catch up, I'm uploading a few random odd bits of photos I've taken and I'm going to have a bit of a chat about each one. This week off of college was supposed to be a week of hard work, college ends in just three weeks now and I need to finish off bits of work and make sure I'm up to scratch, but as the days have literally disappeared I'm left with last minute rushing -which was bound to happen really because I'm incapable of planning anything and doing things with...

I'd just finished and posted the post where I took my dog for a walk (Sunday's post) and my mum had come into my room telling to get ready to go up Watermead. Which is an English country park with lake's and ducks and forestry and lots of stinging nettles. We used to go all the time but it's been a few years to say the least. As tempting as it is to post this now, and do two posts in one day, I'm saving it for Tuesday. It's been a while since I've said a lot of plans for posts. I have this one, my currently listening to for tomorrow (yesterday now) and a haul/concert outfit post plus more. Exciting things.. It was a bit overcast today, however it remained warmish and it didn't rain, even with the scary clouds above us. We fed the ducks, where it went from one swan to a hoard of all sorts after some bread, when I was younger we were chased by a herd of geese after running out of bread and it scared the hell out of me and I still don't like them to ...

It's up on time, its up on time! Today was supposed to be one of those days where I got loads done, my room is sooooo desperate to be cleaned, I was going to go for a run but the weather ruined that idea. My college uniform needs washing etc etc. But I didn't wake until 12pm and I'm still not quite awake, it's a strange day I'm so lethargic and 'meh.' But , I'm still posting on time, and my college uniform is washing, my room... that can wait for another day. I had a song stuck in my head off of the Madness album from Sleeping with sirens, when I first their album I liked it, but I weren't obsessed and I dismissed it too quickly. So when I listened to the song stuck in my head I feel in love  and listened to the rest of the album with a more open mind. Now, it's one of my favourite albums, it's been on repeat the last three days I love it so much. So as usual, here are a few of my favourite ones: Save Me A Spark - SWS , this is the one...

*loud groaning moaning noises* I'm. So. Ill. I'm starting to get better which is why I can finally write up a post. My hands have been so swollen I could barely move them tweeting has been a nightmare! Thank the lord I'm finally getting there I did try to do a post but my fingers just hurt so much. I've been in my room all week under quarantine (where I finished Pretty Little Liars) (It has the best ending ever) (The last two episodes kinda felt like Lost) I was well enough to leave the house the past two days, so I have two posts to go up (this being one of them) I walked the dog round the local park and we ventured a bit further and took some photos of summery things and had a bit of fun, it's the first time I really felt back to my bubbly self after being ill all week. (I weren't sure whether I wanted to write what I'm actually ill with but it's not actually that bad, just bad luck I caught it. It's HFM (kind of like chicken pox but (in my opini...

As usual, I can be really motivated for one day and make all these plans to change who I am and even go as far as blogging about it, make a few pitiful attempts at things I want to do -in half measures only. Then give up. Then go back to being unmotivated and procrastinate the 'change' I'm trying to achieve. This time round I haven't completely given up, I'm holding back. The change I'm trying to make, the thing I'm building up for, it's scary, and I don't know if I want to even reach that far. Therefore the measures I have to take, they have to be extreme, I have to go right in the deep end just to reach a baby step of a milestone to where I eventually need to be. That sounds almost impossible, but once the biggest, scariest hurdle is crossed the rest will come more easily -still challenging, but rewarding. *my very own washing* I have taken small steps into making a few changes, it lasted a few days then stopped (it's been a bad week) (e...

It's three o'clock in the afternoon. I have a very messy room to tidy, a portfolio to (finally) make, and a very long complicated assignment to do (that was due in like four months ago) (oops) all ready for tomorrow. And yet here I am on my blog writing about my current favourite music (I know how to prioritise things) But at least it's a Monday and I'm actually on time so that has to count for something! ?  *shoutout to chipped nails* Stay Together For The Kids - Blink 182 , starting with this because it's playing right now. I know I've put this in here before but it's been a while since I listened to it and I forgot how much I love it. You'd think it related to me on massive levels with how much I love it, but my parents break up barely phased me, I mean I was sad for a bit but I was never angry and I never wanted them to stay together (which sounds kinda mean) But the song, I just really love it, I love how it's been produced and how the vid...

I spent all of yesterday wrapped up in bed dosed up on paracetamol and clutching my hot water bottles whilst crying my eyes out at every episode of pretty little liars. It was an emotional day... When these kind of days happen (I'm trying to be very discrete yet slightly obvious here) my days are spent watching Netflix/or other box sets I have that Netflix doesn't. So, I want to whip up a quick post (as I have people round my house I really don't like and I need to keep myself occupied) about my favourite shows I like to binge watch on bad days.                             Friends Starting with a classic that forever cheers me up no matter what mood I'm in, I think everyone can agree 90s Jennifer Aniston was life. Rachel and Ross are probably my biggest OTP of all time, although I kinda always wanted Joey and Phoebe to happen! Pretty Little Liars My current absolute favourite, it took me a long ti...