floating in the clouds

Some day last week I started writing out a post, and I was quite proud of the way I had written it, but I can't post it anymore because it has to be posted before December. And as December is tomorrow and today's post is Currently Listening To day, I had to delete it. The post was an announcement type thing that I'll still include in this post it just won't be as thrillingly written out as my previous attempt (and the reason it never got posted last week is because I got distracted and busy and it was quite possibly one of the fastest weeks of my life, I don't what I spent my time doing..) Okay, this week I actually have new music to talk about, most of it is from a particular band I've not stopped listening to, but I haven't particularly listened to their songs enough to write a great deal about them and what they stand for, but I can't not say something about these songs because this band stands for a lot -from what I've taken so far from thei...

I did a post back in August about my kittens, I wrote a little about their personalities and who they were, the title of that post was 'crazy cat lady!?' because I became absolutely infatuated with my kittens, this post is a confirmation of crazy cat lady. But after a few months of raising two rambunctious kittens I thought I'd do a write up of everything I've learnt so far, and a bit of an update on their personalities, but mostly I just want to speak about my favourite little ones. Mikey went for his sperm removal operation on Tuesday, in which he wasn't allowed breakfast beforehand. He came back absolutely starving trying to help himself to the cat food. He had a little bandage of his leg from a pre-op injection he was given, and he was so delirious form the anesthetic as well as hungry, that he ate some of his bandage. I tried to take it out of his mouth before he swallowed it, where he realised eating the bandage was something he shouldn't do. So he loo...

It's Monday, I just had to double check that, but it is in fact, Monday. And I'm always excited for Mondays because Mondays are Currently Listening To days, and last week I didn't really have much to say about music I've been listening to.. and this week.. well, I have nothing at all. I haven't been listening to much music this week which is weird. I've revisited the Future Hearts album, I've listened to a lot of Sounds Good Feels Good album, some Christmas songs -which I won't talk about because I'm doing a special Christmas songs post, and TWO Bastille songs. In full shamefulness, it's because I've spent every resting minute watching Sherlock episodes. Yes, I know I said it took less than 24 hours to finish them -so I can't possibly still be watching them can I? Well, I really like them and I'm not bored of them so I keep rewatching them... So this post isn't about music, or Sherlock, it's about Christmas. I freakin' l...

Oh my goodness I feel so giddy. I mean aside from this utter sore throat and earache that has suddenly been thrown at me. I said yesterday I was feeling motivated to have a busy day today, that didn't really happen but today doesn't feel like it was a wasted day.. I babysat my poorly brother all day, dancing to Christmas music, this was the first listen of the Christmas songs this year -despite the ones I've been listening to since January. Then I got ready to meet someone. I was nervous but I knew it would be a really good time, I just told myself that whatever I said today, as long as it was honest, it was okay to say. And everything was so relaxed that honesty was absolutely natural to me (not that I'm a dishonest person, sometimes I just don't speak my mind enough). We were in the coffee shop until closing hours talking about all sorts of things, after being kicked out we decided not to go home just yet, so she bought me a bus ticket to her house where had tea ...

I haven't done a post like this in a while and this is probably going to be a pretty boring one, but I feel like yesterday's post needs a 'part II' and I just need to speak about today... Today I spent the entire day with said person from last post. And I'm feeling pretty damn good about myself, we roadtripped up to Sheffield and had a meal in a pub. I feel like there's three different kind of pubs in this world -or country/part of the country, you have your typical, British, grubby, man pub. Your "oh only the posh locals are welcome here. We only serve our own." stuck up pub. And then there are ones that are just frankly beautiful, with gorgeous gardens, or polished interior, where all the nice people of the world go to have a good time and there's a friendliness in the air. Today we ate in the latter of the pub types, it was old fashioned, as pubs should be, but it was light and airy and modern. There was glass rooms like big conservatories c...

Life has the opportunity to become really, really, great. It may well not turn out as good as I hope, but there is an opportunity for things to be great. But I can't help feeling selfish to want it. Because for me to have this opportunity, I have to forgive two people. Two people who have caused so much wrong in my life, they are the reason behind most of my anger. I should not forgive them, both have abused their second, third, fourth, fifth, sixth chances so I can't tell myself "it's okay to give people a second chance" because I've learnt from years of experience that that has got me nowhere. I'd decided to let one person back in yesterday, I can not forgive them just yet, but I'm lonely and I'm never out the house, so I let them back in. It's so easy to invite people into my life just to give me some new enrichment. But following that one person, the second person wanted back in... And I have been thrown off balance, I've mentioned c...

I didn't post this yesterday, I wrote out half of it which I've just completely erased, I didn't think I had any songs to post about really, over the night I remembered some of the songs I've listened to this week that had escaped my brain yesterday, so I'm going to re-write this post in a very nervous fashion because I'm expecting a phone call I'm really nervous about in about -oh, a minute ago. There's A Place - All American Rejects , I love this band so much!! I didn't even know they'd released a new song until it was recommended on YouTube. And I was in the middle of writing a post at the time so I played it as background music, when I looked down at my phone for a second it was halfway through the music video and my reaction was "WOW HE GOT SO OLD SO QUICK!" but after watching the video through in its' entirety I realised he was supposed to get older.. It's an acoustic song accompanied by raw emotional vocals. It has a k...

Does anyone watch a show, become completely submerged into it, get that involved, that when you come away from your TV/laptop/device you find that you have become the character/s of the show? The way your mind speaks, the way you start doing things? I do this all the time, when I fall in love with a TV show (sometimes a film depending how good it is) my mind become's one of the characters from the show. Right now, I think I have vertigo, I woke up fine, decided to eat, and as I got out of bed, was flourished with all the vertigo symptoms to the point I thought I had been drugged  in my sleep and was now going to die. But that's because of a new show I've been watching. And when I tried describing what had happened to my mum over text, I found I was speaking in a posh way, the way a character from this new show I've been watching speaks. That's a useless way to get into the post, I just suddenly thought if I was the only person who did that -God I hope not or that p...

I was feeling a bit better today, and so I decided to go out somewhere, I weren't sure where until my mum came home on her lunch break and I was asking for my library card (I can't be trusted to keep it safe myself). So I put on some makeup, a winter dress, some tights, and boots -left my hair because it needs washing and grabbed my earphones and backpack before heading out the door. The library is about a 20 minute walk from the house, I usually walk further than that when I decide to get out the house, and if I had more time perhaps I'd have gone somewhere else afterwards.. When I got to the library I headed straight to the 'teenage' section because that's where they put the Hunger Games books if they have them in. And I'm desperate to read the last two! Instead of the Hunger Games, there was a beautiful array of all the Darren Shan Demonata series, up to book 9! Was I not speaking the other week at how much I'm loving these books at the minute! ? ...

I really, really don't have many songs to talk about. There's only really been one song that has made my entire week, it's been on constant, constant repeat, there's been  few other songs I've listened to, but most has already been spoken about during the past few weeks. No One's here To Sleep - Naughty Boy ft. Bastille , not a massive Naughty Boy fan ( musically speaking) but this song is all I've listened to all week! At first I didn't even like it, and I'm still not sure if I even do, it's weird, it feels spooky and slightly eerie, it feels like a story being told in a dodgy hotel where there's secrecy and conspiracies going on in all the rooms. I feel like this song is Dan all over. It's cinematic, and creepy, and tells a story. Everything Dan is. The reason I'm so hooked on the song is because of how beautiful Dan's vocals are, it's such a high toned song but he sings it deep, from the high scale -I don't know th...

It's late, not late enough that I should be sleeping, but late. My eyes are stinging because I've just taken my makeup off and I think I may have got a bit of makeup remover in my actual eye. I also really need a wee but it's dark and winter and I'm in bed now so that'll have to wait 'till morning. I've realised how much of a fool I've been. I've had a sudden glimpse of realisation and inspiration and I need to write about it. I tried to start a blog a few years ago, I had a moment of inspiration and I wanted to tell the world about it, I wrote what I thought was a post, but actually had no idea what I was doing, where this post of intense writing was going to go, so I shut the whole thing down and wrote it one of my notebooks instead. I've been shut away since July. After college ended and we had summer, I saw one friend several times, a family friend several times, my house the rest of the time. Because that's how average teenagers ...

Can I just say the sky looks pretty damn beautiful right now. I know it won't show up on a camera because it just never does it in the right way, which is annoying me a little bit because I want to take 50 photos of it and post those photos everywhere. It's starting to get dark and the sky has split into layers of lilac, pink, and blue-that-isn't-sky-blue, then grey. And the clouds are ombre'd between fluffy clouds and rain clouds, and there's a grey mist over the whole sky so the colours are all blending into each other. It looks amazing. I've decided against this post a day thing for November because I don't want to push my creativity to the point I run dry. Not that I'm exactly creative on here. More with personal writing, but it's mainly because I'm really not having a great time of things and I'm so sick of writing posts that turn out really horrible, because I'm in a horrible mood. I didn't start a blog to share miserable-ness...

Today is a day. And this day is not a good day. And frankly, I'm sick of not good days. My happiness lies in my own hands, but to be happy I have to overcome my biggest fear -no not spiders. Worse than spiders. And I just don't physically have the strength to do that. I'm getting closer and closer everyday, I'm hoping tomorrow is the day everything changes. But when has life ever gone that smooth ?  So I'm going to speak about all the tiny things that make me happy, because I'm a big believer in the little things of life. And I need some little things to cheer me up a little. Long, scalding, steamy, thought filled showers. Rain falling down a car window. Those moments you realise you're truly happy. Spontaneous happiness as I like to call it. When your cats look into your eyes and through to your soul with adoring, soppy eyes. A long lost favourite song coming on shuffle. A stranger's smile. Seeing humans do good deeds to help others. Buy...

It's Currently Listening To day, it's Currently Listening To day, it's Currently Listening To day!!! I'm very excited to talk about my new fave current songs. I don't have a variety of artists, but I have a loooot of songs which are going to have to be condensed so this post won't be three years long. And also because I only have three hours to write it out. I'm having a good day! Which is kind of rare at the minute, but I feel so good today. I've got so much done, I've listened and danced and sang to so much Bastille, I've eaten way too much popcorn and now feeling sluggish, but still smiling away. That is all that matters. Nothing Left To Say/Rocks - Imagine Dragons , this song. It's so damn good. It has an organ sound at the start, acoustic sounds, electric, electric alongside violins, powerful drums, a cello, and amazing bass line. It's everything. And it's been on repeat constantly. Imagine Dragons do this thing where th...

I'm struggling to write this post, I'm thinking of different ways I could do it, the direction of the post has changed completely.. All I want to do is write about what I did on Halloween!! Maybe it has something to do with this awful lack of sleep I'm having at the minute. I've gone from going bed at 8pm, straight to bed at 2pm. I don't know how I've done it, I just know that my body wants to -and keeps sleeping in 'till midday. All I kept thinking about this Halloween is 'Oh my God that happened last year we...' but I was speaking like it was yesterday, and then I realised that it what in fact a whole year since last Halloween. And I remember it all like it was yesterday. And it made me sad, because this year is different from last year. But this year, my Halloween makeup was badass. Not compared to a lot of people's, but we shouldn't compare to people, my makeup was good, I've never done anything but ordinary makeup, it was actually...