floating in the clouds

And just like that, 2019 finally comes to a close. It's been a tough year for almost everyone I know. But it's also been a year of growth and healing. I've been at my absolute lowest points this year, but also experienced some of my biggest highs.  One moment that really stood out was when I was in Ibiza watching the sun set on the Old Town, I was sat on a roof of a building at the top of the city. I had this "infinite" feeling and actually said "It's so weird that things like depression and mental health exist in the world when there are also nights like these that exist" because in that moment it felt so impossible that I could ever have depression knowing the world was this beautiful. However two weeks later I was actually desperately clinging on to reasons to live as though that night had never happened. I thought this post was going to be sad. I've been through a hell of a lot this year and I thought I was here to reflect on how misera...

So this is what happened. Starting my new full time job was way more hectic than I thought. Blogmas was way more intense than I thought. December was way more busier than I thought. So I did what I do best, which was disappear. I never got any blog posts written out, ghosted a bunch of my friends, and dropped off the face of the planet. Less of that in 2020. But as new years is tomorrow and Christmas is just about officially over, I absolutely have to get my Christmas post up! I love my little chilled, chinwag Christmas posts. I had an amazingly relaxed Christmas this year. I had a few days off (I'm working in a job (finally) that doesn't require me to work the three days over Christmas) I ate so much food it physically hurt me, drank so much alcohol I was constantly warm and stayed permanently in my PJs. It was lush. My presents this year were amazing. They all perfectly enrapture my grandma personality. Books, herbal teas, bath bombs and hot water bottles. Ooooh. Perfe...

I wanted to post another birthday post, on what I actually got up to on the day. Mostly because we went for dinner in the cutest place and although I never got a decent photo of myself, my outfit was cute. I also felt really inspired on my birthday and really wanted to talk about how much my friends have gone above and beyond for me recently.  I really did feel alone this year, and after hitting rock bottom I've had so many friends not only show me the most kindness I've ever known, but they've all inspired me so much. I've hid the writer side of me for so long, and this blog wasn't known by anyone I knew personally until just a few months ago.  The love and encouragement I've had has been incredible, I wasn't expecting to be built up like this by the people in my life and I'm so grateful for everyone who has been by my side the past few weeks. It's been a very intense time for me yet I've found myself bouncing off the walls with joy most da...

I always love getting out of the house and doing cute things, going out for food, drinks, to the cinema, mini golf etc. But during Christmas it can become difficult to have those nights out doing things, because money is tight and places put they're prices up, traffic is insane, the weather is crap... there's a surplus of reasons. Mostly it's just money related though. So I decided to come up with a few things you can do to have a nice night in, with friends, family or your partner. But are on the cheaper side, cosier side, and more intimate than a busy, loud restaurant or bar. I'm someone who makes the smallest things into a massive deal, so these night in ideas are essentially very basic - but I'm stepping them up a notch so they become a bit more special and a bit more memorable. I'll start with the one on my Christmas bucket list. A gingerbread house competition.  I'm probably going to do this with my little brother, hair shoved up in a bun, comfi...

I knew blogmas was going to be hard, a post everyday for 24/25 days is hard work. With starting a full time job alongside it, it's made it almost impossible. But I vowed to myself I would do it this year, and I will post 24 posts if it kills me. So I will be doing multiple post days, and spend my days off work writing everything Christmassy that comes to mind! I'm actually not at all feeling Christmassy this year. I think I'm so focussed on my personal projects and work and my inner peace that Christmas just isn't on my mind. We've only just put the tree up. But today I'm taking us back to the Christmas light switch on. I've done this blog post every year - the Christmas lights in Leicester post. I always will do until the day I'm not living in Leicester. I love the lights switch on, the counting down in a huge crowd of people, walking the newly lit streets with a costa thawing your frozen hands, watching the Salvation army brass brand in the town h...