floating in the clouds

So last week, or two weeks ago, I said I was going to talk about my experience/my story with giving blood. I've always wanted to do it since being a child and when I turned 18 it was the first thing I did, signing up to be a blood donor, as well as an organ donor too. I booked an appointment for the nearest date and waited impatiently for April to come around. So... I am that girl who cries at needles. In year 8 when all the girls have to have their cervical cancer jabs, three horrific jabs, I was that one who cried for the entire day, each of the three days. I was the girl who hyperventilated at blood tests, and nearly passed out at my last blood test from the sound of my blood being sucked from me. So as much as I was doing this to help other people and save lives, I was doing this for me. Because this is a year of me facing challenges and overcoming fears, and if I can turn my fears into something fun (like saving lives) then I'd be more willing to challenge myself to face...

I've officially vowed to get back into blogging, there's a few posts I'm excited to get up, and I'm starting with a Currently Listening To in the middle of the week because I need to get some music off my chest. I have such a long list of music I couldn't write it all out in one go next Monday it would be too long. I'm only putting the random odd little songs in this post, then on Monday I'll do the big sha-bang of music. Also how nice is today's weather, I'm sunburnt (only slightly) in April, when it was just snowing a few days ago.. Best Fake Smile - James Bay , I don't know much of James' music but the opinion I do/did have of him is that he's acoustic and sings slow songs, so when I first heard this I was pleasantly surprised by the badassish vibe it has, it's punchy and oh my god -raspy and it's impossible not to dance to it somehow, it's such a happy song and it makes me want to jump around, I can't quite get e...

I've just made myself a sugary cuppa -I usually use sweetener now because diet, but today is a special occasion, I donated blood but more on that tomorrow- and I thought it would be the perfect opportunity to have some down time and write up today's blog post before tidying my room up and doing some jobs. I only have three songs this week, but they're all new, finally! Well, two are new, one is new to the blog. White Fences - Needtobreathe , two years ago I came across this song on a summer's day and fell so deeply in love. Some songs are just "summer songs" they have this happy vibe to them but I couldn't describe them any further than that, every summer I seem to find this one song that captures everything about summer so well, and that song then becomes my summer anthem. This song is perfect, it's actually lyrically quite sad, it's about a broken relationship and things not being the happy picture perfect life that they expected. "White...

It's that time of the month (a little later than usual though) where I talk about the success of the previous month, how far I have come with my original new years resolutions and goals for this year. My main goal for this year above every other, was to get a job. To find direction in my life and have some sort of purpose. After the catastrophe of the job I'm still "technically" employed with, I've been wallowing a little bit, but I've come across a new opportunity that could potentially take me to places I've always wanted to go, I just have to be brave enough to take the opportunity... which I'm not. Yet at least. April marks the fourth month of me not being completely submerged into blogging like I had been throughout 2015 and I don't get why. I vowed to pick it back up this week, and was excited to finally write out some of these posts I've been saving since December. But it's been a really bad week, Alfie, my baby rabbit of just tw...

I am here, doing another Currently Listening To, two weeks in a row, I think this is a new record since 2016! Again I don't have a particularly interesting set of songs, there's no new band/artist I've fell in love with, but there are a few songs I haven't spoke about before which is much better than the past few weeks. Run - Snow Patrol , this song is probably my most favourite guilty pleasure of all time! I absolutely adore this song. Mostly I have spent years listening to the version by Leona Lewis which is just as shockingly beautiful as the original version, so I'm semi new to this, original version. I don't actually have a clue what the song is about, except that it is someone singing to a loved one, it's a desperate song, it kinda feels like a scandalous relationship and the man has to send away his girl to protect her because they aren't allowed to be together, but I feel like that's too cliche a story for a song as good as this. I love ...

Last year on my blog I had a very small series called 'Operation Change My Life' which was my attempt to straighten out my life, but since new year and the operation change my life being most of my resolutions I kinda stopped writing them, it's only now whilst trying to think how I can incorporate what I want to say into a blog post that I've just remembered about operation change my life. So here I am, I have a new outlook on things right now, and these past two weeks have really changed my life around, I'm finally starting to get to grips with living like a normal human being. Growing up (18 seems to be the year of transitioning between child and adult) the things I want out of life are changing, I'm really keen finding a career that's worthwhile, I want to dress different, look different, behave different. Which is actually really hard, because I keep seeing my reflection and hating what I see, too chubby for my grown up smart brain, too freckly, too sma...

Finally I'm actually getting two consecutive posts up, I haven't been listening to many new songs at all this year which has made making these posts really hard because there's not enough to write about. But I'm pushing myself to put something up, I do have three songs I've been absolutely in love with and I've been dying to talk about them... Only Love Can Hurt Like This - Paloma Faith , I was shocked at realising this song had come out in 2014! I've heard it on the radio a few times and liked the song but I've never been a big fan of Paloma Faith so never really chose to listen to it. However, I did that thing where a song gets stuck in my head so I have to listen to it and then kinda never stop listening to it.. I am ob sessed with this song! I love everything about it, the lyrics, the way in which the lyrics are sung, the background music, the song's story, the relatability, the music video... It's a song that will always be a guilty ple...