floating in the clouds

This year had started standing outside in white socks which were getting soggy from the wet ground, as me and my best friend and her family stared up at the sky to watch it being filled with an array of colourful lights and loud bangs and fizzles, our heads were woozy with alcohol and we high off of music and fun. This year was the first time I'd ever set myself resolutions I aimed to achieve. Because it was the beginning of this year that I lost my fear for what people thought of me (although I do care what people think, I just don't fear it) This was the year I really started to find myself as a person. It has definitely been the toughest year of my life to date, dealing with the 'too old to be a child, too young to be anything else' phase has been bloody awful. Deciding how to have a financially decent future whilst keeping myself in a career I love and could do for the rest of my life has been the very thought that tortured my happiness this year. But I ended thi

I'm writing two posts today because my USB is working and I need to get this up before New Year or it will be too late. So hello, this is what I got for Christmas this year. It doesn't look like much, but for some it may look like a lot, everyone has different amounts of gifts at Christmas, I got this:  I got three LUSH bath bombs, one I already used (below), one was "the experimenter" and the other is "twilight"  The one I used was "dashing santa" and it was amazing, my bath was bright red, and felt fresh even after an hour of being there. Usually with baths I feel like I have to shower afterwards because I feel dirty but I didn't this time and I think it's because the bath bomb kept the water feeling clean and fresh. It didn't die out like bubble bath does. (this is my first time ever using LUSH)  I also got some of Zoe's products though I haven't used them yet. I did use the hand cream and I love it! It smells

I didn't realise until earlier that today could be a Currently Listening To post! I haven't made one on so long and it's been really hard holding in all these thoughts about all the songs I've been listening to. And by all these songs I mean all these twenty one pilots songs. It's hard to just casually listen to twenty one pilots, their songs are so powerful and Tyler's writing ability is incredible. Whereas most songs are about things -situations, stories, people.. Tyler writes a lot about thoughts, and feelings, he takes us inside his mind. Writing songs about insecurities etc is a big thing at the moment and artists will sing about these things and try to make you feel better. But Tyler and Josh come along and sing about the same thing and their visionary is so good, they speak about what your insecurities look like, and how they behave which -at least no one else I've heard, can convey in the same way. They don't write songs about insecurities, th

The paragraphs underneath were written last week sometime and is waiting to be posted after I upload the post that should be going up today. But my USB isn't working -again. So I can't get my pictures up that I need for the post that should be going up today. So instead I thought I'd share this one because I am rather itching to get it out. Hopefully my USB will work tomorrow. ______________________________________________________________________________ This post is crying out for me to moan and cry at how a sh*t year this was but that's not what we're crying about today. Because in truth this year has been pretty semi decent. I mean I can't ignore the bad bit so let's rapidly get it out of the way. I had a six month breakdown about my future and ended up spending four of those months locked in my bedroom seeing some very dark thoughts and visiting some places I never thought I'd see again. There I said it. But this year wasn't about the

I've got some free time to post! I so badly wanted to post yesterday but I ended the day very over eaten, very hot (the house was boiling? ) and very tired and I ended up having no energy to do anything other than sleep. I was sleep deprived the night before due an awful nightmare waking me up every hour -those ones that last the entire night... And today has been a busy day too. It's ruined my plans as to what I wanted to do with my Christmas posts so I'll quickly explain that. Today I will talk about how I spent Christmas, and just because today was a good day I'll throw in a bit about today. Then tomorrow I'll post what I got for Christmas, then from then on 'till new year I'll be posting round-ups of the year, getting ready for 2016. So for Christmas day. I was (after a rough night) woken around 7am by thud thud thud "MUM SANTA CAME!" a load of cuffuffling noises then "go wake Shannon" then "oh she's already on the lan

Quickly writing this out while waiting for my monster of a Christmas Eve dinner to settle down. Because 1, I need my monster of a Christmas Eve dinner to go down, and 2, because it may be the only time of the day I have spare to be able to post. It has been a hell of a busy day, seeing other family, babysitting, getting ready, eating dinner.. I am so full it's ridiculous. The kitties had to eat the remainder of my Christmas Eve dinner meat. It's quarter past seven and the night has barely begun -despite my absolute dire need to drop asleep this very second, I still have to watch Christmas films, eat cake, and wrap a loooot of presents (oops) whilst drinking Baileys and watching more Christmas films. (Grounded. It's probably the best Christmas film) I'm not going to post anything too special, I'm tired and filled to the absolute brim with food, and alcohol -accidentally. Like yesterday's post I wanna chat a little bit, I can't write too much because I'

I know I'm awful. I haven't forgotten to post, I didn't want to post two days ago, and then yesterday I was going to post but I was out until midnight, and I'm trying really hard to get into a better sleeping routine so the second I got in I ran straight to bed. source Christmas is only in two days, and for the first time ever I'm excited because I can't wait for my presents. Normally I'm excited for the day as a whole but this year I'm just not feeling it, but I know I've got everything I want -well not everything, but everything I have is stuff I desperately want. So I love every single present I have. In our house, presents work by writing a list of everything we want, my mum will inspect it and tell us what she has money for (because my list can easily be £3000 worth.) and we'll narrow everything down until we decide what to get and then we'll go shopping and get everything, and put it away for Christmas. Where I tend forget everythi

Christmas is in five days. Okay. So, where did the rest of December go? I don't understand how it's come round so fast. And I've done nothing Christmassy. I'm growing up and I hate it. Today I had a really good day, I was round some people who reminded me what exactly I want out of life. We were driving home and I was watching the streetlights out the window and smiling thinking of the day I can finally get out of this town. I met a guy today who liked twenty one pilots and recognised something I was saying about 5sos and told me he loved them. I about died. I did die. For three seconds. And then I controlled myself and calmly explained why my cat is named after one of the members. So anyways, today I realised it was five days until Christmas and I was thinking about Christmas related things, and my favourite Christmases, and thought hey, imma talk about my fave Christmas on my blog then I realised I don't have one favourite day, I have two. So I'm going to ta

I didn't forget to post yesterday, I was writing out a post, which I had to stop halfway through because I was meeting someone, who in the end I didn't meet, and then I was watching the Star Wars films, and then it was one in the morning and I was sleeping. I was going to finish yesterday's post and post that today but I had a good day and I just want to talk about that instead because for the first time since December I'm feeling Christmassy and I wanna talk about it! source I woke up pretty late today. At 5 minutes to noon. I went down for breakfast, and had one of those moments where you just bond with your siblings suddenly. Siblings will know what I mean. And I decided I wanted to do something with my brother all day. So we built some Lego (bearing in mind he's five). For some reason Lego always feels really Christmassy, and I think it's because as a child I used to go to this amazing toy shop in town which had this train track going all across the c

I don't want to write about Christmas! I want to write about bloggy things, and music and things I like to talk about. Because this girl is not very Christmassy this year, and it pains me because this year was supposed to be good. So this post is not Christmassy, because I don't want to think about Christmas today. I'm going to talk about my blog. Because I miss that. My blog was originally created to be a beauty blog, I have followed YouTubers for years, I love beauty, makeup, hair.. the whole sha'bang (I don't know how you're supposed to spell that word..) so much that I did a college course in it, and started a blog because I was too shy to do a YouTube. However, I realised I felt lost in the beauty world, a lot of people are businessman through beauty blogs, I didn't have all that much knowledge about what I loved, and I didn't have the money to buy all the 'new hot products' all the bloggers were raving about. So my blog happened to natur

I can't describe how terrified I am that a little girl or boy is going to somehow read this post and it that it's going to ruin their life. So if you are under the age of 11, I feel like 11 is a reasonable age, then do not read on, every piece of magic inside you will disappear if you do. You have been warned. I'm excited to write this one, it's fun. I want to start by saying I don't think I ever really believed Santa was real, but I'll talk about why after I tell my story. As children we were always told that if we weren't asleep by 12am, which is when Santa would be at our house, that we would be classed as naughty children and Santa would leave, without giving us our presents. This was my parents strategy into getting us to sleep on Christmas eve. However one particular Christmas eve, I think I was 6 years old, but I could be wrong.. I just could not get to sleep and I was so scared that Santa wouldn't come, I went into my parent's room to a

I don't know how it's 8pm already, I haven't really left my bed at all today because I was throwing up at two in the morning last night. I've been resting up all day, listening to lots of twenty one pilots, finding my ex on Facebook by accident.. that was an experience.. and also watching the new season of The Vampire Diaries that has recently been put up on Netflix. Oh and realising that it's only ten days until Christmas. Ten days! I was so excited in October and now it's all dwindled away and I hate that about me. For this post I'm showing an insight to how my house is decorated, we have gone a lot crazier in previous years, but this year is just really the important decorations we've put up. Next year hopefully I'll get to write about our winter wonderland in it's full glory. Some of these photos were taken at night while others, in the daytime, that is why there are lighting differences.  Above the fireplace is a mirror, which we